Catch-22

So I’m currently watching parts of this Live Earth thing because…yes, I am addicted to music.  Impressed by some, confused by others. 

Smashing Pumpkins is apparently singing together again and I’m recalling why I never cared.  Billy Corgan, you can be a skilled guitarist, but otherwise…you leave something to be desired, at least in my case.  You can be brilliant at times, at others…not so much.  And yikes, I didn’t need to see that shot of your teeth.  Another, more blatant example: Jessica Simpson…  You say you’re a Christian, but you’re also…hmmm, what word shall I use that is kind?  Risque?  You’re this, but you’re also that.

Next act, please.

It’s interesting to think about that in terms of yourself.  You can be this, but you can also be that.  You can be the most helpful person, but you can also be the one who mutters annoyances about what you are helping with under your breath.  You can be a leader, but you can also be a follower the other 90% of the time when you’re not at work, church, school, wherever.  We’re all like this.  We have our vices.  We play around with who we are in different situations, looking for that balance of keeping who we are at bay and also trying to make the best impression, have the most friends, look the best, etc.  And don’t say you aren’t, cause you’re a liar (you know what that church kid taunt said when you were little, Revelation 21:8 anyone??  haha.).  We all compare ourselves to one another in various situations.  We are kind of a Jekyll and Hyde, Bonnie and Clyde (not really, just wanted to rhyme there), a two face (Batman??),  like Jim Carrey in The Mask, can I go on? 

Suffice to say, we’re growing up, I’m growing up.  Shouldn’t we be past that?  Shouldn’t we have been past it a long time ago?  Should it have never happened?  I don’t know what else to say, but it’s a catch-22 trying to find who you are in this world with the world coming at you from one side and the church and God’s Word coming at you from the other.  Add yourself and your personality in the mix and it’s like adding the baking soda to an elementary kid’s volcano science project – it bubbles up slowly and explodes.  Is it worth it though, in the one life you have to spend so much time comparing and being two different people when you could just BE and LIVE YOUR LIFE?  I hate to think how much valuable time, how many relationships, etc. I might have wasted so far in my life because I was preoccupied with this stuff. 

Time to be still and be.

On a different note…Phil Collins is on now a la the Genesis era.  Another bald man.  I can take him more than Corgan.  Apparently this is the day of band reunions.  Genesis, Smashing Pumpkins, The Police (hey, another almost bald man!).

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